Petra, hun... you fall into exactly what I'm saying.UO is many things, to many people. Some of the posters here have a distinct lack of understanding of some of the others.
Part of this I think, is a gender thing. BlackRain, you are wrong in assuming everyone wants to win. For example: I have a shop on Siege, do I have it to make lots of gold? No, I could make more gold if I trained a pvm character. I have the shop because I like to make things, and because I like to help people. I provide the necessities of UO life, not the luxuries.
I don't like to pvp, one I don't have the aggressive instinct or reaction speed, and two I can't bring myself to deliberately cause another player distress. I'm a helper, a nurturer, not a fighter. Allow for different personalities in your analysis. EA does.
I play Siege, I sometimes die. Do I fight when I'm attacked? No I either run away or just stand and wait for the inevitable.
Who wrote that line? It is the essence of my argument.The only difference is the way an individual chooses to view it.
You play on Siege where there is no trammel. You get pk'd. So what's the difference between you and someone who plays trammel with a loathing for Felucca?
Obviously, it's the way you view PvP...
(And btw: you're playing UO on "Hard" mode not "Easy." Cheers for being a hardcore-granny-gamer.)