You're preoccupied with Darkfall, man. I get it about someone not having your back on the field. It sucks when you're in a large group of people and you're not getting heals.
I've PvP'd with BiC (basically jeb, Aurora. Cheebs, kelly kapowski, ethan, murm, Monica and then claire later on), !C! On Chessy, was there with Jughead and roadrunner on Lake Austin (pug, murm and old Bic crew), and pug again with L*D(and core bic crew)on Lake Superior.
I quit and came back and it was different. I joined sadists guild and the only good people there were Tao, Roar, Army, Steve, kylun, Claire, Cotton and CounSla - but there were a bunch more people on that would watch s*** and do f*** all. So those core guys were never on eventually and I joined up with murm and pug in LD. LD hardly had 4-5 players on at a time(don't get me wrong we had those blue moons where like 10 of us were on Atl) which helped immensely because your outnumbered and have to think - a zerg is mindless.
Then I quit again, came back joined Toke, and , you guys are really lovely and funny people (ribby,harry,al)and I thank all of you for everything you have done for me. But what it comes down to for me is time and passion .
I don't got time for teaching people how to play this game after 19472827years. You have to just PvP to understand it and grasp it. The more you work together and listen and not lock up the better you will do. I get messaged for days on Atl to duel, told "go back to chessy" or I'm "RP trash" yet this whole month UHOH and THIS RP TRASH has been destroying guilds on Atlantic group fights. I'm talking like 3-4 players taking out 9-12 players. ATL Gate fighting, Necro and I obliterate players on our stealthers. Why? Because we work together.
My passion is to just stomp kids against the odds and Claire shares this idea too. Over the years he has said"hey there are too many people in this guild" or "we need to leave because there isn't anyone to fight on this server." If anything, claire and I leaving toke will help you get better at group fighting. Make some chars on atlantic and fight there too.
I've lost my train of thought... it's late, but all I'm trying to say is giving up fighting isn't going to do you any good. If you get wrecked one day, take a break come back, figure out a plan and pvp. If you feel like you're a part of a zerg - get out before you lose your good habits.
Lastly, to Cotton, you're my buddy man. How many times we res kill Asha and he still denies us ever killing him??? How hard we were laughing just killing/res killing people at idocs? That's the kind game play you want. You wan't people who will watch your back as much as you watch others and you want to ENJOY THE GAME. Just join up on ATL and let's divide and conquer these scrub guilds with there leet NONAME armor mafia, or the Asha Zerg if you will. Plenty of Hi5 and HOT, M$$Y, FOO.... list goes on.
Or we can fight here on chessy - well that's if Asha has 7 on, Brian's guild is on or Toke is baseballed and wants to have some fun. IT DOESN'T MATTER. Have fun doing what you want to do and that's the secret to life.
Just my two cents.