Yup I was a very bright kid... what happened to me was very gradual and mostly due to mercury intoxication, but aso broken coxys and very bad neck trauma. Who had the idea to put mercury in the mouth of kids anyways ? I mean its not the only flexible metal we know... and it's not like Zinc composites cost more or are less effiscient. Oh yes you have to replace them once every 10 years instead of 20 years, but at least they don't leave a blackened tooth with mercury filled dentin behind which you have to grind even more to replace.
When I think about it I see a huge aberration in the system which is what truely I am all about ; thus not empty minded, my mind is still working 24/7 and my work is not recognized by society, even my current best friends have no idea why I am so adamant... it simply is too heavy of a realisation for most to bear.
Oh of course I'm not a victim... perhaps if I didn't eat so much candies (especially citric acid enhanced ones) when I was young I wouldn't have so much cavities, but of course the dentist told us it had nothing to do with acid, it was the little critters in our mouths digging holes in the teeth, we all saw it on cartoons... right. I brushed my teeth twice a day... and my best friend would eat twice as much candy as I did and he never had a single cavity, they said his saliva was basic... but if my dentist could figure that out, why he got kind of upset when I told him I read that study that prooved that acid is what demineralises teeth and that there is a product called recaldent that contains minerals prooved with digital microscopy to repair the enamel. He told me that enamel couldn't be repaired... is that what they teach them in school ? No... it's that BUG again, it's not about to leave.
Some people have pointed out that nobody understands what I mean when I talk about that bug, well maybe thats a clue that I am on to something ? Well I try to encourage everyone to think for themselves on that one.
My mercury intoxication wasn't due solely to amalgams... it was me wanting to stop eating meat because it was heavily doped on hormones and antibiotics so since I was poor I switched to Tuna, that was before they published the studies saying it contained mercury. Well health canada said they were routinely checking the fishes for contaminants, so they said tuna was the best source of proteins and cheapest, containing also essential fatty acids. So I ate it everyday for 2 years, until I stopped intuitively, by then I was so sick that noone wanted to be even near me... it aint called quicksilver for nothing ! My mind was so effiscient people felt uncomfortable near me, the feeling is that you always look like you bring every little event to ultimate spiritual realisations... everything makes sense, all the time and people don't feel uncomfortable because I took it seriously, I didn't ; they felt uncomfortable because it all DOES make sense... people routinely would tell me that, but that they weren't ready to move on to that kind of consciousness, that I had to leave them more "space to breathe". Right...
Then I used a special liver cure to detoxify some of the mercury and it worked temporarly, until the amalgams I had filled me up again and at that point its well known that my body enzymatic functions would break down ; thats the other thing mercury does to you other than destroy neurons, actually the sheath covering them.
So it kinda looked like leprosy, and was more painful that I could imagine feeling pain, I had broken backbone before, but it did not feel quite as painful. This pain was sharp and undulling, my body was unable to produce endorphins anymore... and I even was so desperate I tried cannabis, which some people told me would work when all else failed (I had tried oxycodone and other medical stuff without any success) and behold, cannabis made it worse.
At that point I tried to commit suicide, but I realised that I was stupid and could not finish eating the datura I used ; it made me sick to my stomach and I tought that perhaps I had only this one chance at life, and the tought of reliving the pain of what made me want to suicide over and over was not very inviting. Because for all I knew, this was what would logically happen, since even one second of dream consciousness before death could stretch to eternity, like I had often experienced in lucid dreams, dreaming a whole day between snoozes on the alarm. Even an instant death was not enough to remove this possibility...
So seeing that my parents loved me so much that they would offer help, but not impose it on me... it calmed me down to see such a balanced couple, I went to the dentist and had all the mercury taken out, the next day I felt better, then I gradually regained my health, today I feel better than ever, exept for that abcess of course, but I just managed to heal it somewhat with oil pulling, I feel better now, pain is gone, swelling too and I did not use one pain killer.
I repeat again, I am not a victim to any of those, they are not coincidences but experiences I created for myself to realise how shallow people in general were, how reluctant they were to experience deep emotions. Oh of course if someone close died, it would all come out at once, but to me it strangely felt as they were discharging, instead of finding their own recursivity in the emotion ; which made it all worse.
And to underline it all, when very young I realised this complete aberration of industrial interests versus community people (like those people who really care and do research) because of my dentist. He told me sadly the insurance companies would only pay 10% of the white, cheaper composites ; but they would pay 90% of the more expensive, less profitable for dentist, and completely toxic mercury ones. Even back then I told him... what did you just say ? He ignored my question even if it was loud and clear, I had nothing in my mouth and he kinda looked like he could care less, his teeth were healthy and he was doing his job kinda expression.
So I tought about it and it came to me like a whiff of mercury vapor. The insurance companies wanted the dentist to put mercury in kids mouth. A little dsage over time would make those kids sick and vulnerable, requiring medicines... causing so much ; but that wasn't enough. I also asked my dentist what the canadian dental association symbol meant with the triangles and the serpants on the staff thing and all those little symbols... he told me it was a symbol of medicines he didn't know why it was so elaborate. I accepted his explanation, but now I realise why mercury wasn't enough, you also needed fluoride. They would go on lenghty explanations to tell us we should absolutely not swallow it, that it would calcify not only bones replacing very precious hydroxyapatite with fluoroapatite, muuuch harder but also more apt to break in micro fractures.
Anyways I wont go into details here, but it's still an ongoing debate ; they say its a natural element, but there is a lie right there. Fluor is natural and found in water, and it does the same thing, softly makes surface enamel harder while leaving the precious hydroxyapatite under to remain flexible... nature does it all perfectly ; she dosent put massive doses for periods of time to make sure it soaks in, and besides the effisciency of sublingual and gum absorption into the bloodstream is well proven. Anyways the stuff they use is sodium fluoride, it's a byproduct of alluminum production, and the big dental pasta corporations also own some aluminum industries or have investment in them... the research also says that the sodium fluoride is highly reactive on anything that contains hydrogen, which is essential in our body in many places ; so thats how they found it also calcified glands, especially the unprotected glands of the lower brain like the pineal, which made sodium fluoride a very numbing and calming drug ; it was even used on inmates in cases of riots... they ventilated some of it in the air and soon enough they would all loose the energy to continue.
Strange ? Thats nothing... it's just one thing people overlook ; they prefet to take cofee and speed to compensate ; as you said metaamphetamines ! You're right to blame those for many things.
I can explain it to you why, but it will get fringe esoterics and you probably would not be interested very much in that ; do tell if I am wrong.