There are many things which from time to time cause me too pause and think though what I am doing at the time. Not many things can bring me to change my mind once I am convinced I am right. That is due to the high degree of stubbornness I possess. I am not really prone to listen to the advice or warnings from others. I am more than capable of making my own mistakes after all and need no help from others.
There is however one person above all in who I place my trust.
James has never really steered me wrong and when he brings me a warning I know full well that it is wholly out of concern for me, and not due to any profit or gain to him. And though a most happy go lucky person, he is capable of showing a degree of caring rarely found among the most serious of us.
Sitting with him tonight talking, I hazard to ask him the one question that I have hesitated to broach these days.
“Does my association with Izznet concern you?”
As always, his answer was quick and honest as he spoke of his concern for me. James either knows or senses Izzy’s nature, and he worries about what might happen were she to take it into her mind to do me harm.
I did my best to assure him that I was staying alert and of the promise she made to me. She said she would never seek to turn me and I believe this with all my heart.
We also spoke of the chance that the balefire might be harmed. James could not state for certain seeing that this was not the area he tended. But he did recall the harm done to silvara’s court due to the relationship of one of the fae and one who was kindred.
I am still bound to Queen Elisandra, and my long standing closeness to both her and Sage brought me into direct contact with the balefire at the Freehold of Roses. I have touched that fire, and been a dreamer in the court of Countess Selora.
My connection to these flames is precious and I draw much of my strength from them. The thought that actions I have taken might endanger them is repugnant to me. I would see my own life end before bringing harm to such dear entities.
The living flame is with me in my daily life, and walks with me through good and evil times. It has brought me comfort and healing when I needed it most and I have brought before it a being that through no actions she might intentionally take may still cause irreparable damage.
And though I have assured James that I am taking great care, I cannot speak with certainty that I am not looking aside and letting the danger move ever closer simply because of my feelings for Izznet. More thought is needed on this, and I must take steps to assure the safety of both balefires. Dearer than life, greater than the rising sun itself. They both mean the world to me.
There is however one person above all in who I place my trust.
James has never really steered me wrong and when he brings me a warning I know full well that it is wholly out of concern for me, and not due to any profit or gain to him. And though a most happy go lucky person, he is capable of showing a degree of caring rarely found among the most serious of us.
Sitting with him tonight talking, I hazard to ask him the one question that I have hesitated to broach these days.
“Does my association with Izznet concern you?”
As always, his answer was quick and honest as he spoke of his concern for me. James either knows or senses Izzy’s nature, and he worries about what might happen were she to take it into her mind to do me harm.
I did my best to assure him that I was staying alert and of the promise she made to me. She said she would never seek to turn me and I believe this with all my heart.
We also spoke of the chance that the balefire might be harmed. James could not state for certain seeing that this was not the area he tended. But he did recall the harm done to silvara’s court due to the relationship of one of the fae and one who was kindred.
I am still bound to Queen Elisandra, and my long standing closeness to both her and Sage brought me into direct contact with the balefire at the Freehold of Roses. I have touched that fire, and been a dreamer in the court of Countess Selora.
My connection to these flames is precious and I draw much of my strength from them. The thought that actions I have taken might endanger them is repugnant to me. I would see my own life end before bringing harm to such dear entities.
The living flame is with me in my daily life, and walks with me through good and evil times. It has brought me comfort and healing when I needed it most and I have brought before it a being that through no actions she might intentionally take may still cause irreparable damage.
And though I have assured James that I am taking great care, I cannot speak with certainty that I am not looking aside and letting the danger move ever closer simply because of my feelings for Izznet. More thought is needed on this, and I must take steps to assure the safety of both balefires. Dearer than life, greater than the rising sun itself. They both mean the world to me.