I guess I should say something, too, considering my earlier post stating my current intentions. And perhaps it would be best to share why I've hung around UO as long as I have.
When I first met Mike/Ozog, I had just given away a large furnished house in New Magincia. I was set on quitting, since the direction of UO over the years had effectively made my favorite profession obsolete and I'd given up hope that things would ever change in that department. Then I met Mike, who immediately invited me to come live with the goblins on Pitmuck Island. I thought it over and decided to give it a try... and shortly after the move to Pitmuck, Icky Rotblossom was born.
Playing a goblin was a unique experience, but the best part was the genuine friendship Mike and I forged over the last few years. I don't think a day ever went by without one or more long phone conversations. When we weren't talking about pets, politics, or grandchildren, we occasionally shared our frustrations with UO in general, including my own sense of uselessness in the game. He always understood. He even told me that I shouldn't feel badly if I ever decided to take a break or even quit. He would tell me, "It's just a game." I didn't quit, obviously, although there were many days when I would log in to play when I didn't feel like it because I wanted to be there to support him. He was my best buddy, and I didn't like to feel I was letting him down.
I am very fond of everyone we played with. Always will be. Still, during the months that have passed since Mike's departure from this world, I've come to realize that he was the glue - indeed, the cement - that kept me so firmly attached to UO far beyond the time I thought I should leave.
I was a goblin because of Mike. It may sound silly or foolish, but that part of my psyche feels like it died with him. I've tried to talk myself into keeping on, but every time I log into the Pitmuck playground, the depression kicks in again, hard.
I will have a character in attendance when Ozog's memorial is placed. Also, Phoenix has assured me that she will take over and preserve the playground. For now, at least, I know I need to take a break... and I think Mike would approve.